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letters to our sons – april · fort worth photographer

dear nicholas –

you have grown to love hearing stories about when you were little, the way you use to say or do things, and funny things you do through out the day. i thought i would take the time to share some recent stories with you. maybe one day you will look back at these and smile, or maybe even laugh.

N2bluebonnets2-LTS letters to our sons - april · fort worth photographer

one day last week we went scouting for bluebonnets, you agreed to come along because i mentioned there would be butterflies for you to catch. off we went, with your bug house in one hand and net in the other. i know how much you love bluebonnets – so i told you to take the bluebonnets home that had been knocked over. that was a mistake- you gave me a very scared look and promptly told me NO!- that bluebonnets were illegal to pick and we could get arrested. i was about to tell you there was no one around to even see us but thought twice about that, what would that be teaching you! i could tell you were not thrilled to have mommy taking your picture by the eye rolling you were doing – so i asked you to tell me the worst word you knew. my thought was getting you to think about the ‘word’ would make you laugh. guess what – it worked! you blurted out as loud and proud as you could, SHIT! and then fell over into a pile of laughter.
N2bluebonnets2-LTS letters to our sons - april · fort worth photographer

when i asked you how you learned that word – you looked at me and said you! guilty 🙂 – in a state of frustration earlier that day i might have said that word out loud. i apologized for saying a bad word and we talked about why i was frustrated – to which you quickly replied, shit! and giggled all over again.

N2bluebonnets2-LTS letters to our sons - april · fort worth photographer

often during dinner i will ask you and your brothers to tell me the best part of your day, or a moment when you were sad, something to get each of you talking – our days seem to fly by and i love having a moment when each of you can tell me what is important to you at that time. you told me last night at dinner that you do not like me to look ‘gold’ that you think i am prettier when i look like i usually do. i did not understand what you were trying to say at first, but then realized you were telling me in your own words that you like the mommy in work-out clothes with my hair pulled back or in shorts and a t-shirt, rather than when i am all dressed up. you said that i do not need all that jewelry and make up to be pretty – i am beautiful just like i am. you brought tears to my eyes and made me realize you are wise beyond years. i am so very thankful that you are able to see beauty on the inside and not base it on the way people look.

i love your passion for life nicholas, i love the way you view the world around you, i love your love for God, i love how you think about other’s feelings, i love your smile when you are trying not to smile – i love you!

N2bluebonnets2-LTS letters to our sons - april · fort worth photographer

thank you for being you!

love, mommy.

please be sure to follow along and read Sarah Leonard’s letter to her son.

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letters to our sons – march · fort worth photographer

dear boys-

i am so excited to tell you about the great adventure we had a few weeks ago. your daddy,myself, the three of you and big daddy all went to fossil rim wildlife center for the weekend. we had a blast! big daddy drove his truck so we were able to sit in the bed of the truck while he drove through the park. the animals were so curious and would come right up to us to see if we had any food for them. nicholas, you were very brave, sticking your hand out for the animals to eat right out of it. there was no fear. liam, you really wanted to feed the animals from your hand but once they got close you would throw the food instead. quinn, you took the ‘sit back and watch’ approach. you loved looking at all the animals but had no interest in them getting anywhere near you. you would often jump to the other side of the truck to get away from them. i, of course, was the one taking the photos and would often find myself and my camera in strange angels to get a shot. your daddy was a trooper, i has asked him to feed the zebra so i could get a picture of it. i think he fed him a little too slowly as the zebra thought his finger was a treat. in the picture below you can see the zebra biting on his hand.

fossilrimcollage letters to our sons - march · fort worth photographer

there were several types of deer at the park, they were one of the most curious and friendliest animals. nicholas, you would reach your hand out and they would walk right up to the back of the truck and nibble the food right out of your hand. they were absolutely beautiful. the bucks all had velvet on their antlers, they were stunning. i think your daddy had trouble keeping his seat with all the deer running around and at such close range.

my favorite animal at the park was the giraffes. these were two of the babies that were there, it is hard to believe they are babies when they are as tall as some of the trees. we tried everything we could think of to get them to come up to us, each of you letting out your ‘giraffe’ call – they were curious but in the end decided to stay and eat their hay.

fossilrimcollage letters to our sons - march · fort worth photographer

some of the bigger animals would walk right up and eat the food right off the truck, which of course became a game to you boys. to see how fast you could get the food on the edge of the truck for the animal to eat it. liam, by the end of the day your desire to pet the animals won over your fear of them biting you. you would reach out and pet just about anything that came up to the truck. it made me proud to see you conquer your fears.

fossilrimcollage letters to our sons - march · fort worth photographer

fossilrimcollage letters to our sons - march · fort worth photographer

fossilrimcollage letters to our sons - march · fort worth photographer

 

 

quinn, i wish i could say the same for you. you loved all the animals – but you preferred to look at them from a distance. the binoculars became your best friend by the end of our journey.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

wild turkeys were not part of the tour, they are native to the area. we were lucky enough to come across a flock of them and saw this male turkey showing off for the ladies. he puffed himself up to 3 times his size, displaying all his feathers and strutting around. you boys, including daddy and big daddy, got a kick out of gobbling to him. he even gobbled back a few times. i have to add, even as big and handsome (for a turkey) as he made himself – the female turkeys paid no attention to him. it made me giggle.

fossilrimcollage letters to our sons - march · fort worth photographer

we ended our day at the lodge at fossil rim. we were able to watch some of the animals moving around getting ready for the night as the sun went down. we spent the night on the property- you boys loved being able to look out the window and see deer waking past, or a sandhill crane flying overhead.  we woke up the next morning to this amazing site – such a beautiful way to end such an amazing adventure.

fossilrimcollage letters to our sons - march · fort worth photographer

thank you boys for the amazing memories we created. i love you!

mommy

be sure to following along the blog circle and read andrea murry’s letter to her son.

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letters to our sons – february · fort worth photographer

dear quinn –

there is not a day that goes by that you don’t make me laugh! you have become such a silly, sweet boy. you really started expressing yourself more and more lately. i love some of the things that come out of your mouth and your facial expressions are priceless! you turned 3 last month, i was a little nervous about three for you as your brothers made being three really challenging for mommy. so far you being three has been great – you are talking much more now and seem to get frustrated less now that you can tell me what you want.

QuinnLTS letters to our sons - february · fort worth photographer

i decided to write down some of your ‘toddler-ease’ to share them here with you.                                                                     when you want to do something you will say to me ‘mommy, my do it’, or ‘my go with you’ if you want to come with me to run errands. if i call you a monkey, or turkey or any other name that is not quinn you always say to me ‘my not monkey, my quinn’. i love to sit and watch you play, if you catch me doing this you will very adamantly look at me and say ‘stop looking at me’ to which i respond with ‘but i love you’. you smile and say ‘ok, you look at me then’. my favorite though is when you are wanting to talk or say something when someone else is talking – you belt out ‘my talking’! i think you got that from me – i will frequently tell you or your brothers ‘i am talking’ when one of you tries to interrupt me.  i love how you have chosen to use it.

when your birthday was a few weeks away, we talked all the time about your birthday and what type of party you wanted – from the beginning you always said you wanted a ‘penguin tree’ party (not sure what that was but i did my best to create that for you). oh and you were very insistent that you were four. when asked how old you were you would say ‘i four now’. you were a little disappointed to learn that you were only three. i am so amazed at how well you can put your words together to tell mommy what you want. it may not always sound correct but you sure do try as hard as you can to express yourself.

QuinnLTS letters to our sons - february · fort worth photographer

you love to help mommy with the chickens – whether letting them out of the coop in the mornings or checking for eggs. you want to be right there doing it. you often go over and pick one of them up and carry her around while having a conversation with her. i love listening to you talk to them – which usually ends with you saying ‘thank you for the eggs’.  you especially love to hold skittles –

QuinnLTS letters to our sons - february · fort worth photographer

you are also always willing to be my model for taking pictures. if mommy wants to practice a new technique, test out the light in a situation or even just take a picture of your smiling face – you are very cooperative for me (some bribing for candy may take place as well). it helps that i show you the picture of yourself on the back of my camera. when you see the picture you sometimes will say ‘my do it again’.

QuinnLTS letters to our sons - february · fort worth photographer

i am very proud of the little boy you are becoming and i cannot wait to see what being 3 brings for you! i love you to pieces quinn.

mommy

i have joined with several other mommies that are writing letters to their sons each month as well, please be sure to read becky swain’s letter to her son here.

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letters to our sons – january · fort worth photographer

i am continuing to write letters to my sons every month in hopes to express to them my thoughts and feelings as they continue to grow. this is the 2nd year of my letters. i look forward to writing these – i have so much i want to say to them but i am often at a loss for the words. i welcome you to follow along with me each month as i continue these letters.

my dearest boys – with the start of a new year i find myself thinking of so many wishes and dreams for the three of you. there is so much i want to say, so many things i want you to know, i wish i could hold each of your hands forever as you journey through life. to pick you up when you fall down, to give a simple hug or kiss to make it better, to listen to you when you are sad. i love watching each of you grow into such amazing boys – it pulls at my heart strings seeing you grow up so fast.

boys2-LTS letters to our sons - january · fort worth photographer

as you journey through life you will hit some bumps along the way, but hopefully you can pick yourself up, dust off your knees and keep going. mommy wants you to remember several important things as you go along your journey…

1. pray – pray to God everyday! be thankful for what you have been given in life. even if it is just saying your guardian angel pray at night – pray to God, talk to him, tell him your dreams and your fears. you may not always understand why something happens to you, but if you ask for God’s guidance he will walk with you always.

boys2-LTS letters to our sons - january · fort worth photographer

2. be polite – always use your manners, saying please and thank you. you never know who you will come across in life and a simple please and thank you can go a long way. and boys, be sure to hold the door open for girls when they are in your presence. let them go first – and do this with a smile.

3. it is ok to cry – never be afraid to cry. you are never to old, too cool or too tough to cry. if something makes you sad, hurts your feelings or even just tugs at your heart strings – show it! being able to express your emotions make you more of a man, not less. i want you to always express how you feel. so please if you need to, cry! i will always try to be there to hand you a tissue, give you a hug or just listen.

4. use your words – i say this phrase to you many times a day. learning to express your feelings and your needs is very important- it will help you not only in dealing with girls but people in general. this little piece of advise will get you through many obstacles in life. and don’t forget if you need to refer back to #3.

boys2-LTS letters to our sons - january · fort worth photographer

5. never hit a girl – there will come a time in your life when you will find girls fascinating and frustrating all at once. girls are confusing, and you may not always see eye to eye with them. it is never ok to hit a girl for any reason- ever!

6. try new things – whether that be food, sports, hobbies, just about anything. don’t be afraid to try something new. you may decide you don’t like it, but at least you gave it a try. as mommy always says – you never know if you will like something unless you try it!

7. say i’m sorry – never be afraid to say i’m sorry when you have done something wrong. when you say i’m sorry – mean it. saying your sorry is not easy to do, but it is the right thing to do. when you find yourself struggling with this refer back to #1.

boys2-LTS letters to our sons - january · fort worth photographer

8. laugh out loud – laugh so hard that you cry! laughter truly is the best medicine. you cannot stay mad and laugh at the same time – i dare you to try it! and don’t be afraid to laugh at yourself. being able to laugh at your own mistakes only makes you that much better. there have been times mommy has laughed so hard i either shot milk out my nose or peed my pants – just once i want you each to laugh like that!

9. be thankful for your brothers –  you won’t always like each other, but you will always love one another! not everyone is as lucky as the three of you and has siblings. so be sure to tell your brothers you love them, be there for each other, support one another and listen to each other. when you need them – they will be there for you!

10. lead by example – your actions will speak louder than words. act in a way that you would want others to see you. treat people the way you would want to be treated. if you say you are going to do something – do it! trust is a powerful thing- do not take for granted someone’s trust in you. 

boys2-LTS letters to our sons - january · fort worth photographer

last but not least – never doubt your mommy’s love for you! know that i would move mountains to protect each one of you. you boys are my heart and my soul. i love you each more and more every day – and that will never stop. i will love you always!

mommy

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letters to our sons – december · fort worth photographer

dearest boys –

this is the last letter for this year – so i thought it fitting to write it to all of you. what a year it has been! there have been so many milestones with each of you. i am amazed at how much you each have grown this last year.

we had a great christmas this year- it was just the 5 of us. your daddy decided it would be fun to have a slumber party in liam’s room on christmas eve. we would all sleep together in the fort he built- knowing what wiggle worms you all are i opted to sleep in liam’s bed. you boys all slept next to each other and on top of one another all night. i could hear some stirring about 3am. i quickly told liam to go back to sleep – it was no where near time to be up. at that point nicholas started blowing his nose and continued to do so about every 5 mins for the remainder of the night. daddy would chime in with his snoring now and then as well. the giggling started about 6:15 and after much bribery and threats we were up and downstairs by 7:15. you boys were so excited to see what santa brought you could hardly contain yourselves!

boysblog letters to our sons - december · fort worth photographer

i set up my camera and my remote to try and capture the chaos of christmas morning. while the images are not technically correct, they are ones i will cherish forever. i am so glad i was able to be ‘in’ the pictures as well.
boysblog letters to our sons - december · fort worth photographer

you boys had so much fun opening presents as well as giving presents to your daddy and i. i love that you each picked something out to give to me. the presents you gave me were a true reflection of your self and i loved opening each one. nicholas, you made me a beautiful beaded necklace that i will keep forever. you put so much work and thought into making it, it was such a sweet gesture from you. liam, you gave me a tcu badge holder to use at work. i love that you thought of getting me something that i could use while at work. quinn, you gave me a purple and white hair bow that would look great in my hair when i was 3 years old- i love the thought and smile every time i see it on my dresser.

you spent the majority of the day hanging out in pj’s, playing with your new toys and games and lounging around. it was such a great day to just be with each of you. we snuggled on the couch and watched a movie, we built legos, shot your bow and arrows, played the guitar and sang a few songs. i could not have asked for a more perfect christmas.

boysblog letters to our sons - december · fort worth photographer

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

boysblog letters to our sons - december · fort worth photographer

boysblog letters to our sons - december · fort worth photographer

 

 

each of you picked a part of the meal we were going to make for christmas dinner. we decided to make caveman chicken (aka drumsticks), mashed potatoes, carrots and stuffing. when daddy got the chicken out to cook we realized it had gone bad! daddy and i were scrambling around trying to decide what we were going to serve instead of chicken. i ran up to the one grocery store that i knew was open on christmas day only to discover it had closed an hour ago. i was driving around town trying to find any place that might be open where we could either get something to cook or order something, but everything had closed. we made it work with what we had in the house, and you boys didn’t even notice we were not eating the caveman chicken for dinner. we had a great day and i am so very thankful to have spent it with each of you.

i look forward to what next year will bring for us as a family and for each of you. i thank God for each of you, for your health, your happiness and your love. life is crazy, but i would not do it any other way.

i have enjoyed writing these letters to each of you every month – it allows me to put into words my thoughts and feelings for that month. i know i do not always take the time to say to each one of you just how important you are to me or how proud i am of you, so writing these allows me to do just that.

thank you boys for allowing me to be your mother, to love me unconditionally and for allowing me to love you! i love each one of you so very much.

your mommy.

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